Why I understand

I have lived through almost all of the issues on this site

It was a week before Christmas in 2017, and I was training for the places that I had in Tokyo and Boston 2018 marathons (the last of the Marathon Majors for me) and celebrating qualifying to represent Great Britain for my age group in the Triathlon World and European Championships in 2018. When I had an accident that was not my fault. It came completely out of the blue – and I found how ill-prepared I was, having not missed a race or training block due to injury since breaking my ankle playing hockey at University, and having not spent any time with the medical profession in those intermediate 25 years.

2018 became the year that I lay on my back, and 2019 the year that I missed in a haze of pain and prescription medication. I was hospitalised twelve times (including a ride in the ambulance) and had ten general anesthetics and a number of major surgeries to my spine and hip. I floated in and out of days, not really knowing how to get through the debilitating pain, other than that I had to hang on. There were days where I had clear visions of my body giving out with the pain, out-of-body experiences and very challenging physical symptoms.

I know the feeling of being lost and alone with the challenges

I had experiences that were terrifying, confusing, mind-opening, saddening and maddening and probably most emotions in between! I also researched every possible thing that I could and found that there were so many basic questions that I could not find good answers to. And then I started to talk with lots of other injured athletes to find that they were also navigating the same lonely paths and trying to find a healing path between the anger and the sadness. So that is where this site started.

I am still working incredibly hard on the recovery and rehabilitation, and realising (as many people do) that working on your mindset is perhaps even more important (and difficult) than working with your injured body. But I wanted to share and help others. This road is too difficult to walk alone. We each need every ounce of support that we can get.

You deserve help and support

Please do share your own journey and struggles. The path to recovery is incredibly hard, but it need not be lonely.